The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.
- Carlos Castaneda
The past couple of days have been hard. A family friend passed away and it's hit me hard. For multiple reasons including protecting the privacy of the innocent, I won't say much about it. Just know I'm hurting for my friends.
Plus I've been sick. I've never had streph throat and I certainly don't ever want it again. The worst part about it was being quarantined. Especially in a time when I wanted to be there for a friend.
And it makes me feel guilty - I've been a little self-absorbed for the past couple of months, agonizing over my decisions, "problems" and indulging my every whim. In the "Big Picture" of things, I have no problems, no complaints and a happy, healthy family. If I ever needed some persective, it's been the last couple of months and I finally got a huge dose of reality. It's going to change the way I think, act, and approach my life. I need to live with more gusto and enjoy all of my moments.